I have been previously focusing on a whole new creative project. Plenty of energy and enthusiasm being spent. A great deal of productive time making new things. Bouncing my ideas off of others within a coaching group. But whenever I attempt a fresh journey of making, I have discovered myself becoming angry.
Why does this happen? What exactly is this anger about? What is happening?
My mentor and I were discussing this. She wondered aloud this thought: “It sounds like the tender spots are where you are angry”… yeah. Very tender. The anger is telling me something.
Finding that it is not easy to help keep a project picking anger throughout, I wanted to find away out to operate “through” or “around” the anger. So, I distract myself with painting, stories, dancing… something creative, but more mundane along with a bit mindless. This creative energy frees my thoughts to ensure that I’m able to “trick” my anger into thinking I will be busy with other things.
Once i make this happen I call it “spinning”. Spinning reminds me in the stories in the spinning wheel where I could get busy creating (much like the wool about the wheel). This opens the door to metaphor and takes me from my must “control” an undertaking.
While i began drawing this picture… of a spinning wheel… I figured of “turning straw to gold”. I used to be reminded again from the story of Rumpelstilskin. You understand, the one… the millers daughter, the father says “she can spin straw into gold” on the king… along with the king really wants to see this… of course, if she cannot, she’ll be placed to death… ? Then, a bizarre little man appears. He tells her he is able to spin straw into gold… however it will show up at a price to her.
I ran across the tale and study several versions of it. It resonated beside me. However, as I usually do, I could to logically “organize” the tale. This caused me to get more frustrated, because i wasn’t seeing or feeling what this story was attempting to let me know.
So I went back to my “dream capture” work. I just read the tale as if it were a goal I’d had. Then, I did so these:
Listed out all the characters
Listed your “key words” within the story that resonated when camping
Re-read each word and wrote what that word meat in my experience in my unique circumstances
And then… I began to get noticable exactly what the story was saying. Here is what I ran across
The miscroscopic man (Rumplestilskin)=anger/creative fire/naming
The miller’s daughter=rest/creativity/giving
Spnning wheel=creating/spinning/asking for help
The baby=creation (project, artwork… )
While all these “characters” comes with an independent role, Each of the characters create one “psyche” for me personally. Most of us have of those qualities within us.
In order to make something, it will take much energy… and rest is also needed. We should give of ourselves and order help.
Eventually, a child is born and we will not quit. It can be our “creation” and we’re surprised about what we should are making. Also, what it takes to have there.
What did I learn?
That story resonates when camping. Also, this story will repeat itself repeatedly while i continue to create, rest, people for assistance and finished a job. Although Rumpelstilskin stomps himself in to the ground following the story, that little man is going to be back… and next time, Let me know his name.
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